In less than three months, I’ll have no job.
I’ll have no salary.
I’ll have no health insurance or benefits.
I’ll have no apartment.
I won’t even have a gym.
I’m resetting my life with one purpose - to make Modern Bronze into what it’s meant to be. This won’t make sense to anyone now, but it sure makes sense to me. For the first time in my life, I’m all in.
I’ve always had one foot in the door of normalcy and one foot in the door of purpose. I was the “musician with a day job” for the past 8 years. I don’t regret any of that, but I was always too afraid to take the risk of living off of what I loved. I had all the reasons not to - nice job, ever-increasing salary, luxury apartment. There are quite a lot of perks that come with these kinds of comforts.
Problem is, they’re not real.
When I look back on my life in 50 years, I’ll need to know. I’ll need to know that I risked it all for the sake of following the Call to Adventure. I’ve neglected that call once before, and I can’t let it slip again. I’ve been living a half-life, following the rules I’m supposed to follow and doing the things I’m supposed to do. Those days are over - it’s about time I embarked on the journey to make my purpose my life’s work.
That being said, there’s a price to pay for entry. I’ll have to humble myself and let go of the worldly comforts I’ve grown accustomed to. I can lie to you and say it’ll be easy, but I know it’s going take some serious ego-leveling. Everything that happens in my life from that point forward will be up to me - how I make money, how much I make, how successful I become. It’s not at all about the money, but making money off of it is the Great Test. I’m throwing my hat in the ring.
My question is, when will you join me? That thing you’ve always wanted to be - musician, painter, bodybuilder, whatever it is - when will you take the leap of faith and risk it all? Don’t make the mistake I made the first time around and let your dreams fade in quiet desperation. Do what you have to do to make it work, and follow your own Call to Adventure.
I’m going to keep this one short, as it’s 4:00 a.m., and it’s been one hell of a week. I can barely see straight. I’ve been off the grid the past few days (hence the short posts this week) doing some pretty wild psycho-spiritual grief work, and I need to recover. More to be revealed on that in the coming days. Tomorrow, we’ll return to our normally scheduled programming.